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    Shane has been missing for a long, long time.

    Or: Ilya goes on a road trip. Somewhere along the way, he finds himself again.

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    3/3
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    27 Jun 2026

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    “Shane has boyfriend?"

    “Mom thinks so. He’s dodging my texts, but it definitely seems like he’s seeing someone.”

    Ilya's whispered "No" was drowned out by a loud snort from another teammate, who said something like, "Good for lil' bro."

    Ilya shouldn’t feel like dying. Should have expected this to happen at some point. Deserved it, even. He had been ghosting Shane for months, after all.

    In which Ilya knows he's not good enough to be with his best friend's little brother. He spirals over Shane possibly dating someone else nonetheless.

    Alternatively, Ilya will always be the one Shane will still run to.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    27 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.

    Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.

    Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.

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    26/26
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    25 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya know each other vaguely from the kink scene, seeing each other at munches, play parties, in clubs. they have friends in common. Ilya is a well known Dom and Kink Photographer, and Shane is the prettiest sub that Ilya has ever seen.

    Ilya is obsessed with Shane, the only problem is Shane hates Ilya. Ilya is too loud, too handsome, has too many different subs on his arm every week. And Shane isn't shy to let his best friends Rose and Hayden know just how annoying Ilya is.

    In an effort to shut them both up Rose conspires with Svetlana to have Shane model for a photoshoot involving cane marks, and if she doesn't tell Shane that Ilya is the photographer then that must have just slipped her mind.

    --

    Or the one where Ilya marks Shane with a cane and falls in love through a camera, while Shane falls in love in front of its lens.

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    Chapters:
    5/8
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    23 Jun 2026

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    After the tuna meltdown, they never really get the chance to get back together, only watching each other’s lives from a distance, occasionally reaching out through texts, pretending it’s enough.

    Until one day, Shane receives a package at his doorstep.
    It’s a book. It’s Ilya Rozanov’s memoir.

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    3/5
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    4,917

    22 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander was the number one draft pick and is now captain of the Boston Raiders. Ilya Rozanov quit hockey after his mother died and now owns a bookshop in Boston. When Shane moves into a new apartment down the street from One Good Memory, he finds more than just a convenient place to grab a new book.

    Or...Shane is lonely and closeted and reads a lot; Ilya is charmed and quotes books at him.

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    9/?
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    04 Jun 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    17/?
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    03 Jun 2026

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    @ russianbear clove 

     roz is so fucking funny man had two seconds to process and he spent them thinking about how to get that ass

    @ icemenace Ro - he's so real

    @ shaneybugbug Libby - oh he's been WAITING for this 

    @ iwant81 Abbie - he was so obviously joking oh my god 

    @ russianbear clove  - ummmm i don't think so

    @ iwant81 Abbie - rozanov likes girls english just isn't his first language so he accidentally made it look like something you freaks are taking advantage of

    @ russianbear clove - so he's joking or it was an accident??? Istg at least chose one

     

    or - Shane Hollander comes out and Ilya loses his mind

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    27 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander, captain of the Boston Raiders, is the the undisputed best hockey player of his generation. But he’s lonely. His relationships with women have never worked out, and he’s afraid he knows why.

    Ilya Rozanov is a charismatic, openly bisexual personal trainer and influencer. His content is half thirst traps, half brutal and perceptive hockey critique.

    It’s no surprise, really, that Shane falls for him so hard and so fast.

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    Chapters:
    42/44
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    16 May 2026

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    As his breathing turned rapid and labored, he felt the unmistakable presence of a foreign force pulling him through a closed door. He heard a lock. Before his mind could process the occurrence, he was suddenly enveloped - caught in the unyielding grip of two powerful arms - unforgivingly tight. He couldn’t see who, he could barely process where and why, but he felt himself shaking and his eyes burning and leaking raindrops on the shoulder of the force who squeezed tighter. Minutes passed, who knows how many, in complete silence other than the gasps coming from Shane as he sobbed. When he felt his heart reach a relatively normal pace, and the drumming in his ears quieted, he felt himself melt for a moment in the arms he still hadn’t recognized until he heard the voice. “Hollander, you are having panic attack.” Shane froze.

    *****************

    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are true rivals.

    5 years into their MLH careers, Shane Hollander is outed and the only one there to save him is the man he hates the most.

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    13 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander, hockey enthusiast and licensed massage therapist, is an expert in helping athletes keep their bodies in tip-top shape. Working with the Boston Raiders should've been his career milestone.

    One Ilya Rozanov makes things much, much more complicated. Relentless on the ice and unreadable everywhere else, Ilya unsettles Shane in ways that have nothing to do with hockey and everything to do with proximity, restraint, and the dangerous pull of something unspoken.

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    Shane is a sports therapist that starts working with the Boston Raiders.

    Strong hands shifted to the back of Shane’s head, to the nape of his neck. That’s when time began to blur, seconds melting together until they barely existed at all. That’s when Rozanov leaned in – and when Shane followed. Like the strike of flint against wood. They existed in that moment, and in the wildfire that followed.

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    10 May 2026

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    After the All-Star game in Tampa, Ilya flies home to deal with his father’s death; Alexei is arrested, and Ilya assumes custody of his niece. After months away from the NHL, Ilya returns to Boston with a child, and Shane hears rumors of Ilya with Svetlana and a 3-year-old with curly hair.

    Or: Ilya doesn’t communicate, Shane makes assumptions, and they’re both idiots. Featuring brattiness, pining, and second chances.

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    Chapters:
    4/12
    Comments:
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    22,264

    06 May 2026

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    Alternate Universe where Shane's storyline is the same but Ilya never played hockey and is instead an OnlyFans content creator. Basically, a way to explore what would've happened to Shane had he never received the emotional and physical (and maybe a little toxic) safety net that Ilya offered him.

    AKA I wanna explore Sad!Shane cause I don't feel like we talk about it enough! But also smut. And more importantly, smut that drives plot. Let's strap in, ladies(and gays and theys).

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    Chapters:
    17/17
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    1,366
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    134,408

    03 May 2026

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    “Need a bet to get laid, Rozanov? You’re really that desperate these days?”

    “Nostalgic, maybe.”

    “Wow. Big word.”

    “Shut up, Hollander.”

    Shane shuts up.

    “When I win,” Rozanov continues. “I get you for…twenty-four hours.”

    or

    Shane and Ilya are in rival frats in their senior year and it's time for the annual Greek Olympiad. A bet is made.

    Language:
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    11/13
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    2,326
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    9,637
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    4,170
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    384,334

    30 Apr 2026

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    In the months between Sochi and Vegas 2014, Shane Hollander decides he’s done watching Ilya from a distance.
    He stops waiting.
    Told through alternating POV, this fic explores what happens when Shane moves on, and what it does to Ilya to realize he doesn’t get to decide where Shane stays.
    It was never just sex. It was never just a game.
    And when Shane finally chooses steadiness, it changes the rules.
    And who is that man?

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    Shane is trying to build something honest.
    Ilya is trying not to lose him.
    And the silence they used to live inside is no longer an option.

    filled with angst. slow burn.

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    222,969
    Chapters:
    34/?
    Collections:
    4
    Comments:
    1,513
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    2,439
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    1,240
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    146,029

    27 Apr 2026

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    A regular day in the life for Squad Leader Hollander quickly turns into a mad dash across the quadrant, leaving behind the life he always thought he wanted to save the one that really matters.

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    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    888
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    1,264
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    615
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    26,625

    20 Apr 2026

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    After the season ended, everything should have been simpler.

    It wasn’t.

    Because love said out loud is still not the same as staying.
    And when a ghost from Shane’s past returns to the ice, Ilya is forced to face the one thing he cannot control:

    the parts of Shane that were never his to begin with.

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    14,150
    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    158
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    676
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    19,115

    20 Apr 2026

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    Ilya is the lead singer in rock band Overtime Lights. Shane is a hockey player.

    In this second part of the Rockstar Ilya series, there will be scenes from their relationship and their lives. The scenes will be from different parts of their relationship: past, present and future!

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    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    236
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    4,558
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    496
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    32,933

    19 Apr 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 1073

    Mystery Work

    Part of OA Private
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    09 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    Language:
    English
    Words:
    350,699
    Chapters:
    20/?
    Comments:
    10,380
    Kudos:
    20,486
    Bookmarks:
    7,644
    Hits:
    1,148,475

    22 Mar 2026

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